The past month has been bittersweet. With the summer its brought beautiful days here in Christchurch so had to have the store doors open so we don't spend a fortune on air-con, which leads to bugs of the flying recovery attacking the ceiling lights, grrr, i don't like killing em since i was young when as kids you killed them just because. For example, they say if you squish a red spider it will rain tomorrow and stuff like that, then somebody once told me they have feelings too and since then Ive tried like hell not to kill bugs unless i absolutely cant catch it and throw it outside where it belongs...
With my car out of action im catching the bus everywhere. It sucks. it wastes like 3-4 hours of my day that i can use for my constructive things then running to meet times and waiting round for them. Plus with all this extra time i'm losing sleep as i get home most nights 11.20pm after finishing work at 10 so not much time for tea/shower/recreation before sleeping and getting up and walking/busing my wife to work where she starts at 8 so having to wake at 7 to get to the bus in time, then walking back from her work and getting home at 9. def 1 hr 40 mins longer than the usual trip.
Auckland is getting closer. no geographically but my 'Hall-pass' year like is, I am going to study film-making for a year there then after that shoot my debut feature and hopefully get it on screens and in video stores come 2012/13. But in the meantime til March, i have 2 months and half to close some chapters on my life.
My wife thinks I'm a dreamer, its only now it really sinks in how much she believes it and that its up to me (i cant wait to make my speeches when i make it), while her career takes off and she has her own posh circle of friends, god bless her , but now she talks down to me worse than ever. This is my chance to get 'my' degree if you will. It sucks when you're wife becomes the breadwinner but ever since the GKR karate job blew up in my face this video low wage earner is what I've become, but we ARE paying off the debts and improving the quality of our lives little by little.
I will finish and release my album before March 2011, That's the plan then release a couple music videos and see where it takes me, realistically, no one will care OR pay attention, but i will have flushed my music dreams from my system happily. I always said i would release an album, it wont sell a thousand copies but in the future it will be remembered i released one, So for now my heart and soul goes in to releasing a record I can be proud of.
Anyway, until i launch my personal website where i will blog every day on my Auckland mission, martial arts, films, and art and all the it entails, take care and have a great christmas :)
with love
Matt.
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